Happiness

   Everyone strives to be happy. I think, though, that everyone strives to be happy all the time- and that is just not possible. The goal should be happy more than any other negative feeling. In my mind, when you grew up the negative feelings would slowly disappear until happy was something you felt more often than not. 

 

 It just kind of was a shock to me when I realized I don't think I know anyone who is happy more than any other feeling. Every adult I know is often more stressed, or depressed than happy. 

   It makes me wonder if the true happiness everyone strives for just doesn't exist and we all just cling to the fleeting moments of happiness we do get. Happiness can give you an on top of the world feeling, but can we really feel that all the time? If you think we can, tell me who you know that is happy more than anything else. 

  Change my mind, tell me I'm wrong, tell me someone other than children have the possibility of being happy all the time. 

  I don't mean this in a, 'I've given up' kind of way. This realization also brought the one of, no one is happy all of the time. That one is obvious, but it took years for it actually to sink in and for me to understand it. It gives me less of a reason to be upset at myself for not being happy, and one that understands that mood fluctuates and It is okay to feel negative things sometimes. Of course, I am no where near happy most of the time, honestly, barely any of the time. But, I am trying to get there and that is about all I can do. 

Later.

No more excuses.

    Developing a need or want to write for me, for the past several years has been one of the most difficult things. As a younger kid, I was writing nearly constantly. Whether it be fanfiction, or something I made up completely on my own. Somewhere along the way, though, I lost my desire and love of writing. 

   Lately, though, I have found a fleeting feel of that want I cling to it desperately. I have a hard time forcing myself to do things that are not easy. Writing, for the most part, is easy, in the sense that I can do it if I really put myself at it. The biggest trouble is finding the motivation to look at my computer screen for more than ten minutes at a time to actually do it. 

    So, this blog is my way of telling myself that it is time to start, Its time to stop wasting time and actually try and pursue the future I want. This blog may be full of simple retellings of my day, but I feel like even writing a little bit is a victory, considering the lack of writing I have done for me over the past years.

    Yesterday I was laying in my bed, near four in the morning watching this Netflix Original called "Set It Up" and one of the protagonists said something that kind of just made everything shift. She said, 'If you are going to be a writer, you have got to stop making excuses not to write'. That really hit home for me, as I've been doing just that for months on months. It was just strange that I heard that just as soon as I decided to take writing a lot more seriously. 

So, here I am saying that I am done making excuses, and I am ready to become an author. 

Later. 

   

Introduction

Hello everyone, or perhaps even no one. 

    This is going to be an explanation of what exactly this blog is going to be. For the most part, it is going to be a place where I can express myself creatively and show it to the world. It will be a place where I share my thoughts on writing, my own writing process and how my journey is going. 

   I do not know how long this journey will be, and I can only dream that it will have the destination I want, but hopefully we will all enjoy the drive and learn something. 

    I have several Ideas in my head, and I created this blog to help me sift through them, flesh them out, and hopefully begin writing full stories for people to enjoy. 

   My writing is a mess and a half, but lets learn together how to make it great.